true happiness? or temporary happiness?

what is true happiness? i think i've somewhat obtained it. like im there but im not there. i have everything i could ever want and more. im just missing one thing my best friend. lately my "other bestfriends" havent been a shitload of help. i love them believe me i do but with recent events im sorta scared to tell them whats really going on. how do i talk to them about my dad they all have both their parents that love them.....and well when they complain i can't help but to feel like wtf and why. i want my best friend that understands when a parent denies you love something inside of goes sorta wrong. im not looking for sympathy just someone who completely understands me and my feelings on this. someone who can say "it'll be alright" and actually mean it. i want the person who could tell without a shadow of a doubt that i was lying when i said i was fine and pulled the stuff out of me. i know wishful thinking at th moment but a girl can dream. other than that i have what i have. someone beautiful i can kinda sorta call my own. money (though my last check was spent on someone and yeah lol) even though i keep paying my mom. friends who i can depend on. college. a bright future ahead of me and possibly one day soon i'll have love. all thats missing in this beautiful equation is my best friend....hmmm i hope she's happy i pray for her a lot. i want this happiness to be long term. i cant help but wonder is this true happiness or temporary and which do i want or need right now at this exact moment?