awwww they found out i was sad and called me. thats cute i'd be really excited and shit right now but i'm not my heads too fucked up. i guess the way i should carry everything is as if it never happened just erase everything from my memory....suck it up...right. im saying this now but it wont be as easy. im writing shit on here cause everyone on tumblr will be in my business and i dont want that im already getting phone calls out the ass and i just want to eat this ice cream curl in the middle of this bed turn my sad love songs on and cry. i have realized im very much so intense and thats horrible because things hurt more. i lost a blogger follower today. i guess i should say oh well huh lol thats not finna happen though. i need a vacation. i want to go to puerto rico and visit some friends. im sick physically mentally and emotionally. i feel llike i have to throw up and its worst now cause im really sd. im feeling some type of way right now. gaah what the fuck im pissed hurt angry and all. ugh fuck this im tired of crying. i feel like this shit is some twilight shit im jacob and your bella but right now at this moment im bella and your edward when edward leaves and bella is all sick and shit thats me i feel like shit i wanna go do someting dangerous....well no not really but shit. i wanna drive to a cliff or beach and just watch shit. im pushing it out of my mind. blogger i still owe you some shit. my 30 days so im finna finish that up soon