Okay so I just got in the house. Well my grandads to be exact. I have a skype date :) lmfao. My sweetie pie in New York wants to have a skype date sooooo we're sitting at our tables with food next to us and drinks and we're going to eat. We planned that one day we'll do this at a restaurant like zoey 101 buuuut lmfao I doubt it. My pie is sweet and understands that at this moment all I can give is friendship. I'm not talking about that 'I ONLY WANT TO BE FRIENDS IN THE LONG RUN' friendship but the friendship where we both understand a relationship is really not in my reach right now. I'm happily single but I know my boundaries and they know theirs. There is no "I'm going to get a girlfriend while I'm waiting for you thing" It's a "we're talking and until we both agree that we're ready for more there wont be a more with ANYONE" we both know we like eachother so thats a good thing. It's no guessing with this one and for that I am truly grateful. I'm starting to smile again. True I have my moments where I wish things were different but then if I never had those moments that means that I never actually loved the old person and I did. I just don't want to be worried about an issue that will never change, I realize now that I was just a bit dense. The signs were there and I ignored every last one of them. I never opened my mouth to express how I felt about things as I started noticing them I just hoped that the person would tell me what was going on and they never did. I knew nothing would ever come of it even if they did claim to love me as more than a friend, sometimes as they said "Time makes feelings subject to change." , and well in this case it was only a little bit of time but oh well. This time I'm not putting my all into it unless I'm sure that what I put in I'll get back. They understand that and they understand that the whole friends thing is just a title for us at the moment it doesn't actually make us "homies" it makes us two people that like each other but aren't trying to be in a relationship yet.