part 2

put it back the wrong way. they dont care that it doesnt fit the way they put it in they got what they wanted out of it. maybe i should wipe my slate clean all the way clean and just leave it like that. maybe i should be anti social. maybe i should just disappear its not like anyone but what my family and 3 of my friends.....mya, deven, and shannon, would miss me. im at a point in my life where i should be just deleting the world. for now on my goal is to make it and anyone standing in my way i'll crush them those i meet along the way ill use them to my advantage then discard them, those who offer love.....well ill tell them to shove it. i dont want it anymore. i spend valentines day alone i hate seeing couples on the street it irks my soul. i hate it, im content with everyone around me but me being happy. i sabotage my own happiness. how you may ask, shit just ask anyone who knows me and anyone who may have ever been in a relationship or close to one with me. this sorta seems like one depressing ass blog but oh well. blogger i might delete you soon tumblr too and fb and yim and aim. i want a new start new people in my life and well what better way than to fall off and create a brand new life. im rethinking moving to new york. i might like cali or florida better nothing that i know there. i realize im babbling but hey i have nothyhing better to do with my time. today was good my feelings and emotions werent here. i felt nothing. granted i had a moment of weakness but who doesnt. ive made a rule......dont cry over what you know you cant and will never have move on facts and actions speak louder than words and if you arent good enough you never will be. see thats a good rule isnt it. like i said before i put everyone before me. i put others hearts before mine their feelings before mine and