had a heart to heart with my baby today (notice i didnt say spouse....yay) i was real and kept it 100. i told my baby the truth about everything and we're still together. "i'll just have to show you i'm better and you can trust me with your heart" thats what my baby said despite the fact that i said my heart was with someone else but thats done now. i feel better than i did this morning. i got a cold cloth and put it on my eyes so the puffiness can go down. i told my bae those three words and though i didnt mean it at the time thats someone i might want it with. someone who's willing to stay after i told them something that could potentially break their heart. we make five months tomorrow. im stingy with my money i never buy anything for anyone and usually when i do i regret it. but im gonna buy my baby something nice. its the scent i really love and i wouldn't mind smelling it on the bae. i'm gonna see how long this lasts. part of me thinks we're gonna do this until after this weekend when we go out to celebrate our anniversary. we're going to bahama breeze. its really romantic in there.....if we dont hit that place we'll probably go to this hawaiin restaurant :) can you say smiles i looooove pineapples....maybe things aren't so bad. i still feel physically sick but i'll get over it. my friend told me to cry until i cant cry anymore and who knows how long that will be. im recovering, i cant blame it on anyone but me...hey i fell hard....i forgot my strategy its a game and i was caught off gaurd no hard feelings only love. i wrote how i felt in my journal i only have one request. :shrugs: oh well. its time to get the color of my eyes from red lmfao.