finally in the house. i had a crazy ass....night. what started off as a fucked up day ended as a fucked up day/night. lost someone....see i had two heart to hearts with my baby today....now my babe is my ex. i feel like shit because i know i was wrong. i wasnt fair i knew someone else had my heart but i kept my ex around. what comes around goes around. we had a civilized break up i just feel like shit. i was told what i told someone else "i'll still be your friend i just need time" my ex is moving to florida. nothings here for them anymore. i feel like an ass i lost a good person to my dumb ass heart. like i knew in my head that i was the cause of a lot of problems but i always blamed my ex. in reality my heart was calling another. your heart isnt a brain it cant make wise decisions for you.just like my ex is letting go of me i have to let go of the one i love. fucked up i know but karma is a bitch and love is a game i just lost. my brain knew i was making a dumb ass decison but my heart didnt. i havent stopped crying for the last what 4 days? and my friend told me its good to cry she told me cry until i cant cry anymore. but i dont want to cry i want to stop. im sure who im crying over damn sure isnt crying over me so why waste tears. they made their decision and i have to be an adult and accept it. granted i dont want to but i have to. its an old saying that when you love someone you let them go so as hard as it'll be for me im going to try my hardest to let go. it was cute today though just a tad my bestie wanted me to get out the house so she arranged a girls day. "im pretty sure she isnt miserable like you" those were her words. i've heard a lot of words pertaining to her annd the situation. through all of what everyone is saying and whats going on i still defend her to no end. i dont know what else she can do to make me not care. i dont want to ca