okay so maybe its the fact that im a very emotional person. im very much so ruled by my feelings but at the same time im extra forgiving. i dont know what it is but im feeling really back burnerish right now. im feeling like im coming 2nd in everyones life. as if i will never be number one and the sad thing is i have a lot of number ones in my life yet at the moment im not a number one in any of their lives. i guess i should say fuck it huh.slowly but surely im losing feelings for a lot of people and i cant say im sad about im actually rather happy. why you ask because sometimes feelings arent shit and i learned that the hard way plenty of times. i wish i could find that one person who will put me first but hey thats wishful thinking right because im nothing more than a number two. honestly i have a fuck you attitude. numbers are getting deleted emails and facebooks getting deleted skype and oovoos and yim and aim