called me today or tomorrow i'd drop what i was doing and answer, if she needed me i'd be there. me, well i wouldnt call cause there's nothing left to say until she's ready for a friendship. would i call her if something was seriously wrong? no i wouldnt because i dont exactly expect her to be there we aren't really "friends" at this time i just know her and she knows me and we have mutual friends on facebook. anywho we hung up and i cried like nobodies business im still crying but hey i have to until i can't anymore. i think i sabotaged the happiness of girls night and i really feel bad. my best friend called her while i was crying against my will had lah take my phone and took her number out. i was upset to say the least, that wasnt necessary she said how she felt the end.my best friend called her i was pissed....she told my best friend i blamed her for shit....my bestie said she thinks it hurt her that i had sex....if you could've seen my face. -_- really....she's hurt cause i had sex....thats funny i dont see the problem. maybe someone should explain it to me. she's in a ummm thing right and she's hurt i had sex? that doesnt make sense its not like i did it to hurt her i was fuckin drunk. i sat through this whole lecture of how if i care about her i wouldnt have said that. now truthfully i dont remember telling her that but then again this morning i was drunk too. i went to sleep at 2:14am and woke up at 6am got drunk up until 6:40 and i recall txting her and getting on here. i didnt tell her i was drunk but oh well. sex? did it happen? no i was drunk as shit coming out the side of my neck i professed my love to a childhood friend wtf? ummm i wasnt sober i blogged about sex on here...i was drunk i wouldnt do that shit sober ewe. granted in a few minutes im going to try and get drunk but its my way of running away from reality. i d