I guess

I guess I'm mad & hurt because that was the day I realized I can try but I won't stop loviing you. I keep getting reminded of how inlove with you I am. I cry some night knowing that I've always been in this alone. You say I wasn't but I know the truth deep down. I've never been so inlove to the point where I don't care what happens as long as I have you in my life. That's how its always been with you. We go through this thing where I get hurt by you & you apologize & I ALWAYS forgive you. I know you'll never read this which is why I'm comfortable putting this up. I try to hate you everyday yet for some reason I can't. I try to stop loving you but it doesn't happen. I hope she makes you happy & that you love her the way you couldn't love me. I try to erase you from my life but it doesn't happen. I can't go through with hurting you. I always say its funny love is what brought us together but its also what tore us apart. You have my heart uzuri always and forever, forever and always. I dream of you even when you don't dream of me. I love you & I'm sorry I still do. I guess I just needed to admit that to finally get over everything.