Someone Special

So it's 2:24 in the morning. I'm up and I'm listening to someone very special to me sleep. A lot is on my mind and I wish it wasn't I've been very emotional last couple of days. I've been getting asked what's wrong and I've been responding nothing. Truth is something is wrong but I've only been able to come to the conclusion that something is wrong today...well a couple of minutes ago. I'm scared....thats right I'm scared. Scared of what you may ask. I'm scared that I'm going to lose someone so "Someone" since I know you're going to read this, this is for you. I'm scared somehow someway my place in your life, in your heart will be taken. I'm scared that although you love me and you have feelings for me, your feelings will die. You told me "Time makes feelings subject to change" what if your feelings change once again? Idk it's just been a feeling I've had lately like maybe one day soon I'm not going to mean that much to you, and though I know you'd never intentionally hurt me things happen. We're going to college and new people will come into our lives and I don't want to be put on the back burner and left there all forgotten about. Maybe I'm just being sensitive but I tend to be the one that people always sit in the back and forget about. Maybe I have nothing to worry about but the thought is still deep in my head. I wish I could just tell you this is how I'm feeling but I'm scared too. Because then what if you think this is all because we barely talk (which its not), or what if you think that its a bad idea you told me how you really felt (which it's not), or what if i don't know it's just a lot of 'what if's' in my head. I think I love you way too much. Like the way I feel when I talk to you, the way a lot of things are. I don't know. So "Someone" You are extremely special to me and the thought of losing you scares the shit out of me, like I have tears coming out of my eyes thinking about that. I don't want that day to ever come, but if it does I want you to know I'll always be here no matter what. I'll always love you and you'll forever have a special place in my heart. I'm scared, like I just have this feeling that it's going to happen sometime soon. Don't let it happen cause I don't know how I'd take it.