My life

So I don't know how much longer I can pretend to be strong. Everything is getting so crazy and hectic right now. I'm feeling certain types of ways about people and things and I really just don't know where my head is or what I'm supposed to do. My heart says one thing, my mind says another, and my friends are telling me something different. Why afre things so damn hard. It's like eveyrtime I'm goog things turn bad and from bad they get worse. My life is falling apart around me and I pray to God that before everything crashes and I hurt the people around me, I start to build it back up. I need guidance and the only person who can give that to me is God. LAst night I cried and prayed and had a mental breakdown. But thats nothing knew this school year. This year has been the year from hell. I just pray that God knows that THIS everything that's going on around me is more than I can bare.