I don't think I learn my lesson. Like I know I should I know I should give up hope not care anymore but I do. I love them like head over heels gone in love with them & I can't do anything about it except accept that we won't be everything stands in the way it hurts though.

I honestly don't even know how I feel right now I'm fucking at a loss for words. Like it's fucking inevitable for me to get hurt by them. Like all the time. A year in 11 days it'll be a fucking year. A year of me being head over heels in love & a year of me just loving someone & giving someone all of me. Like I'm lost hurt & confused.