I keep editing my attitude. Changing how I feel about certain things for certain people. I've been doing it so long now I forgot how I really feel about certain things. I have this urge to make everyone happy even if that means sacrificing my own happiness. I'm not sure how I'm going to revert back to the old me, the me I was part of last year. I have to take back my happiness and claim it as mine. I can't let people affect my attitude or thoughts on certain things. It's funny it took my cousin telling me how much she missed the old me to make me realize a lot of this stuff. I used to not always put other peoples wants and needs in front of my own I knew how to compromise. They used to call me selfish now they call me a pushover. I need to find a common ground between the two. No longer will I be the girl who puts everyone in front of me leaving me to be the last resort in not only others lives but mine too. I will no longer be the back up plan or put on the back burner. I won't be the girl who feels like it's not okay to have someone love her. I give everything that happened the past year and a half back everything except the wisdom. "Sometimes you can't trust the ones you think will never hurt because in the end they almost always do" I am changing. Others might see this as bad but I see it as good. So goodbye to everyone who hurt me or tried to make me feel inferior, goodbye to all those who put me down. You aren't needed anymore. I want to say last year was the worst year of my life but it wasn't I learned a lot. It taught me a lot about girls don't trust them. I'm on a new level now I'm happy and though I may have my bad days where things from my past make me sad again. I refuse to let those things run my life. I tried being heartless but I can't do that. I'm starting over. So say Hello to the new me :)
